This is the best time so far. Right now. I got a little Factory going, got away from all the Psychopaths, played a bunch of gigs but now I'm tired of that too. Just having visions of the moment of creation, trying to stop controlling things and instead just letting my whiteness take over. Its working!
You can’t even walk home at night without accidentally disrespecting one of them. And that’s all that’s needed to make them fly into a murderous rage. Zero outrage
Fucking Cancun Airport had more Jews than the fucking Holocaust. I swear. I will upload a quick video clip later. I ended up being seated in the midst of them. You can't escape them. Probably at least 40 of these goblins on my flight and at least half were Hasidic. Last year, I got seated next a real grimy reform Jew from Russia and he pulled out some disgusting food that he brought from home and stunk up half the plane with it. Before that, he tried to run a sympathy ploy on the Flight Attendant who in turn tried to get me to surrender my seat to his goblina wife. When I refused, she sat his disgusting ass down right next to me. I wanted to elbow strike him in his fat fucking face.
It was pretty compelling. A lot of the dialogue is as good as Shakespeare. He tells Peter he will deny him three times before the cock crows. Peter denies him three times and right after the third one he hears the rooster.
Lol i said "fuckin LOVE IT"
Then when Jesus came back he asked him three times if he loved him and told him three times to take care of his flock. It's shakespeare.
Focused a lot on the words of Jesus, trying to figure out why a God would say these things. I did get a sense of frustration that the Creator would have with the limitations of language.
We possibly think too much of a Reward, and we think God wants Glory, which is also a reward.
I do want to glorify God more in my music but I do not believe anything requires the glory. I do think the Creator wants us to know how good everything is and to celebrate it. But that is for us. I had visions of a god who would never think of Glory but would however come here to help us. And while I do think this place filters bad Souls away from the source, I do not think Love has much to do with it. And as for the reward we experience the Reward every second. I don't need promises of anything else. Yes I would like to be in touch with the source forever. So I will try not to fall away
